*** Me and a group of others rode on horses at night. I was in the front. Behind me was a white guy around 40 with curly hair and glasses. A college professor. Kagome and Inuyasha were in the group too. The sky was a beautiful blue with stars everywhere. There was a diagonal bright blue light that looked like an opening. I said to the man behind me "Isn't it beautiful? It's like a crack in the sky." He said yes. Kagome disagreed, saying that she had a bad feeling about it and that it might be a certain thing. (I forget the name she used.) She said that when this happened, three stars would pass by, and the second dimension would be destroyed. Right after she said it, 3 stars floated through the sky. The group was gone, except for me and Inuyasha. Men attacked us with spears, but we were immune. They were easy to stop. Breaking the spears was as easy as breaking dried out plants. I figured out what Kagome meant. The second dimension must have been Japan, so I was alive because I was American. Inuyasha and I continued traveling together, and we both missed her a lot. I kept having the idea that the world was worse without her in it, and I had to do something. I should start practicing archery, see if I had spiritual powers I could awaken, and marry a man there and have a kid. That way, there would be a new person taking the place of one who had died, another person to learn about their history and keep it going. But I knew that people would treat them differently for being two different races and it would make their life harder. The thought made me sad. I also felt like I was too old. I was already 28, so I'd have to rush through everything and if I took my time, I wouldn't have a kid until some point in my 30s. I was usually upbeat with Inuyasha. He was sometimes short and sour with me, which made me sad. I liked him as more than a friend but I knew he had feelings for Kagome, and ever since she'd died, he seemed more irritable with me. Sometimes I felt like he disliked me and wanted me to go away and never come back. I think part of it was that he probably felt like I was trying to replace her, become her. And I was sure part of it was my personality. I was the timid and weak type who liked being saved. He'd only ever had feelings for two women, and they were brave and faced enemies. So I probably sickened him on some level. One day, he was having fun on something similar to a trampoline, but it defied gravity a bit. He seemed disappointed when I entered the room. I felt a sting of sadness. Maybe he thought I didn't even notice. But I did. I always noticed eyes and tone. He also liked climbing up a difficult net. We walked around town and I saw a firetruck. Looking through the window, I noticed a purple wisp floating in the air. On some angles, it looked orange, like when I had both eyes open. I got him to look too. I saw Vegeta, and Bulma walked behind him like she was going to catch up and surprise him. She fell and I immediately went over to her because she had to be hurt. She was. I asked if she wanted me to tell Vegeta so he could carry her. She said no, and stood up. I didn't say anything, but I thought to myself that the strong woman thing got old. Just let men help and stop trying to prove a point. But it occurred to me that that was why he was with her. He wouldn't have fallen for a soft woman. Inuyasha and I went through a huge orange plastic tube, and it reminded me of a McDonald's play place. I thought of Kagome and asked if he wanted to go back. He looked irritated and said back where. His tone matched. I missed her so much, and I was sick of the way he'd been acting with me. I knew he was in pain and was not good at dealing with feelings properly, but it was hurtful and it had gotten old. I said something like "Please don't get offended, but I mean back in time. To fix what happened." The reason I said it that way was because I worried he would think I was making a joke of it, and that would infuriate him. He said he wanted to do it, but there was no point in talking about it because it was impossible. I reminded him that Kagome had come from the future. I said I wasn't smart, but I could ask people who were for help. He agreed to my idea. I said Bulma was really smart and always inventing things and her son had time traveled, so there was two useful people already. Another time, we were somewhere else colorful that looked like a play place. Sango, Miroku, Shippo, Kilala, and an old Native American man sat in what looked like a ball pit. They mentioned that Kagome would be going in a department store. It was like her body hadn't disappeared as we had thought but had become like a mannequin. Inuyasha was mad and instantly said he wouldn't let it happen. He left. He didn't even know where to go. I said I refused to let her be used as a display. They mentioned how there was also one of Inuyasha. Both times, I cussed. The man spoke of anger and revenge and how they were bad. I said something like "Well, I've always been a very angry person. So I'm gonna give into my rage once again. People shouldn't do things like that if they don't want problems." I took a beaded bracelet with me and left. It had white cubes with black letters on black string. I don't know what it said.
🦃🦃🦃 It seemed we were in the past in the beginning, but then in modern times for the rest. The dimensions part doesn't make any sense because Inuyasha would have died too, and the professor would have lived. You'd think a person's dreams would be happy and ideal, but no. This one was realistic in how Inuyasha was not interested in me at all, and Kagome's death only amplified it. Me thinking about my age was realistic. She was 15 when she went to that world, and 18 when married. I knew people were supposed to start things young. Awakening powers and just beginning when I was nearly 29? Marriage and a kid in my 30s? Right. I could have just immediately have a kid with a stranger or a donor, but the thing is, that's not what I wanted. I wanted to marry someone I actually loved who felt the same way, and we would both be there for our kid. Intentionally going for a Japanese guy would complicate the whole thing too, because many would feel creeped out and think I was a fetishist. I couldn't tell them my reason, I would sound insane. And it's not like I could fully hide the reason, because I was always bad at that. I preferred to have a daughter because it would make more sense to replace someone with the same gender. But I had the strong feeling that if I did it, I would have a son. I think the McDonald's play place showed up because I really liked it as a kid and it felt like an adventure. It was probably also in there because Inuyasha would have thought it was neat as a little kid too because it involved moving. This is one of my favorite Inuyasha dreams. A lot of detail and there was actually stuff going on instead of it being short and simple.
